Frustrated of life

trying to decide,trying to decide.....
many things to decide..>.< me myself also don noe how to make a good decision..!!! crazy soon...!!!
Today is a very special day(30/12/08)....Happy tat mom still rmb...:)
But,sometimes secrets hide inside our mind is much better thn spray out...js onli for those who reli understand u; noe wat u r thinking...:)
I'm a kind of person like to joke around...js nw received an email..jus wana share my feeling toward tat msg...
It's about~愛你身邊的人~

從前有一對情侶，他們在一起4年了。。他們過得很恩愛，很幸福。。
在那段期間里，他們每天都很高興，因為彼此都是那么的靠近，

但

好景不長在，
第四年開始，他們感情出現了問題，他們遇到了很多問題，
男的盡量解決，但他們都不想放棄那份愛情，因為他們彼此都深愛著對方。
男的叫女的不要放棄，一定要等待，女的也答應了，
就因為這份答應，男的很有活力的去解決問題，因為他知道，他的愛人還在等著她的回來。
時間就這樣一天，一天又一天的過去了， 他們彼此都還有見面，聊天，但卻沒像以前那么久了。。
直到有一天，男的通知女的說，事情已經差不多解決好了，女的聽了很高興，
女的就問，那我們現在是什么關系呢？男的想了想，就和女的說，就像以前那樣，每天一起玩，一起逛街，一起看戲，
女的就問，那到底是怎樣呢？男的就說，就做朋友吧，因為女的曾靜開了一個玩笑說，做你個朋友好過你的情人，因為你更關心你的朋友。
男的想了下就這樣開玩笑的和她說了，做朋友，但是一起玩，一起逛街，一起看戲的那種。。
男的心理其實是意識要和她做回男女朋友，做回情侶，

但

女的會錯意了，她以為男的真的放棄她了，她以為男的不要他了，要和他分手了，
女的也沒問男的為社么，
男的也不懂女的會錯意，
就這樣，日子過了幾個星期，雖然他們彼此都有聯絡，都有一起出去，但他們彼此的心都不知道對方會錯意了，
直到女的回去家鄉了，男的還親自送她上飛機場，
就這樣，在圣誕節的當天，女的和男的說，她接受了新的男朋友，
男的聽了，很傷心，為何她放棄了他，
男的覺得，為何之前的山盟海誓都是假的，男的需要時間去反省，去冷靜到底發生了什么事，
第二天，男的打電話問女的，為何忽然又了新的男朋友，怎么沒和他一起了，
女的說，是你放棄了我先，我哭了幾個星期，我很傷心了，我真的很累了，
男的聽了，很驚訝，為何女的說是他放棄了她，他沒有，真的沒有，
他便問是什么時候的事情，他真的沒有這么說過，因為男的從始直終都沒有要放棄對方，
他們便這樣談啊，談啊，原來是當時女的問男的是什么關系的時候，就因為一個開玩笑，“做朋友”導致他們分手了
男的雖然在盡力挽救，但女的因為在那幾個星期里哭的累了，傷的很痛了，她已決定放棄了，
男的希望通過這側故事，告訴這世上的人，多了解你身邊的人，多珍惜你身邊的人，
男的也希望愛情之神，可以讓這篇故事再回轉到他的信箱時，女的可以回心轉意，從新回到他的懷抱，
男的也希望，女的看到這側信息時，可以給男的一次機會，讓他從新追回她，因為他是真的很愛對方，
他很想，很希望女的可以陪他一起過完今生，
他很想給女的一切的關心，

當女的害怕時，可以在她身邊保護她，
當女的受傷時，可以在她旁邊支持她，
當女的很悶時，可以在她身邊陪著他，

因為有時就因為一個誤會，一個錯誤，讓你失去了他/她，
在這里，請你們祝福他們，也祝福這世界上的人，有情人終成眷屬。。。
愛你身邊的人，珍惜你身邊的人。。不要讓機會溜走了，一去不回頭啊。。

After read tis msg...i feel tat it happened to me too...:/,but different story...i tried to write out a story kindly about tat,end up i failed to do so...>.<
"愛你身邊的人，珍惜你身邊的人。。不要讓機會溜走了，一去不回頭"seriously take tis as a note n owes put it in ur mind...:)

My precious

feel tat recently not tat smooth...everything bad owes come to me..>.< nth i can control or offense..js let it be...js hope tat bad things get away from me asap in the end of 2008 n welcoming new year of 2009.

Wat the bad luck 2day...my beloved basketball shoe been stolen by somebody,reli damn sad while i reached hostel.This afternoon,i went out for lunch,suddenly recieved a call from my neighbour n told me tat,somebody trying to enter my hostel..>.< At the moment..i suddenly feel tat,my basketball shoe will be the target....i don noe how come got tat feel...jus for example..last wednesday 24/12, whn i on the way bac to college after my lunch wit my clsmates,i js wonder will meet up a police.As a result...it reli damn "cum" Police car was following me at the bac whn i bac to college,1st time trying to escape cz i knew tat he will saman me...after few turn wit purposely to escape,but the police car stil following me..in the end..thanks God.It was nth..The policeman went down n told me"lagi kali jangan tengok police baru pakai seat belt"!!!WTHeck...
my precious basketball shoe..don even wear tat offen..now oledi "hilang" heart pain!!!

14/12/08
wake up late 2dy...:( cz i slept late too..tot nt to slip,but failed to do so,end up still have to take a rest..Starwalk..."Star" mean organized by Star daily newspaper,"Walk" mean walkaton.1st time participate...i feel so fun after penang bridge international marathon run..continuous charity run and starwalk.There were around 6000 walkers participant...At 1st,i was a bit confused,why so many walkers waiting at the road side..in my mind questioning"what for they still waiting here?"

At last..it was a big troubleshoot,those waiting were non-competition walkers,they started 15min later then competition walkers...damn shit,on behalf to starting point,there was a person-in-charge stopped us but we don giv him F*ck,jus walked away..!!At the begining..my fren n me still worrying whether it start or nt...>.<
In the end...finished it at 1 hour 30min..bit disappointed,tot can get another medal bac tis time...manatau..tak ada!!!never...at least i get myself off from the bac..:)enjoy too...:)

My lucky numB2495 wit ceft and Nando's cash voucher:)

recently reli damn bz...owes last min work,sumore is passing assignment period,so have to rush it >.<>


i had bought my Ck summer purfume....i tried it very hard to search it...finally found..:)
it reli nice..addicted of it cz there was a history of it..:)but i stil appreaciate it..
1st time i knew tis Ck summer was from a very special person..it was a haf year ago..she bought me a small bottle of sample..since tat time i love it so much:)thx yea..
Year end sales...haiz..no $!!wana buy a lot of things..:(

23/11/08
AGain...after 1 week from my 25km marathon,today charity run again..eventhough jus 6km..:)
satisfied to myself....i brought my pain to tat run>.< my leg nt reli recover after penang bridge marathon.On the day..i js tried my best to finish it..THat so..!!It's reli pain after run nt far away...but i still keep running...end up finished it within 39mins!!consider nt bad...but i think i can do it better if my leg is OK!!Brought bac 1 medal n 1 cert again..:) haPPy...

2nd medal in this month....also my 5th medal in penang...:)

today went for body massage...wow...it's reli nice n comfortable after did it..:)
feel relax...after tat...feel tat my leg gettin better...do hope my leg can recover asap..:)
week 8 now..haiz...havent start my revision yet...wat to do??>.<
wake up man!!!!

马来西亚的古今诗歌

從前英國殖民地
阿巫阿華和阿印
大家一齊坐LORI
大家一同吃ROTI
還會一起打GOLI
凡事都會講道理
後來幾個老KAKI
無端端去攪獨立
從此阿巫就稱帝
樣樣都要講BUMI
阿華阿印變小弟
就算付出多努力
面對不平眼淚滴
多說幾句把你踢
再吵舉劍給警剔
奉勸安哥和安娣
姐妹大哥和小弟
投票給它就MATI
五十年来没政绩
国州议会乱放屁
特权拐杖不肯弃
喜欢喜欢举keris
还讲要用血来洗
不然炸药碎尸体
明明净赚几百亿
油费路费还要起
RM几十亿搭taxi
送人上去做roti
还要埃及插国旗
国会漏水漏满地
天桥随时压死你
拉姑眼泪加鼻涕
拉伯睡觉更够力
还有他的好女婿
老查皇宫大手笔
甘叔不认他ugly
香米换番薯一粒
根哥数学有问题
要起华小不可以
国 小起了养denggi
和平集会全抓去
反而称赞mat rempit
墨水点指tak jadi
外劳还能变bumi
五年一到糖一粒
阿山突然很friendly
赢了之后全忘记
继续吸血乱砍你
天枰歪了国家大问题
管它眼睛月亮还是DAP
为国为民一律送进去！

17/11/08
Pain Pain pAin....>.< 1st time in my life....
Early in the morning..it was around 3...preparing go for Penang Bridge International Run...
suppose must arrive destination for registration within 3.30an-4.15am..but we late..:(
whn we reached there...it was 4am++...in between tat,got a argument wit a India guy...cz there were a lot of cars n motors parking around residential area.we as well...but tat illegal India fellow asked for parking fee..WTF!!i hate penang....1 of the reason is penang got a lots illegal ppl collecting parking fee in certain areas..especailly whn there is a function or public holidays..those $ sucker start working...sHIt them!!is nt i'm stingy n count for those parking fee, they r reli too over....been happened 1 time,asked for rm5 per car..how could it be???we js come for fun...they ask for makan??too over!!!

haiz..!!whn u reached the destination,we heard lion dance nt far away from us,we keep on our steps...mean tat gona start for man open 25km marathon...we so nervous finding registration counter...end up..there is no counter,js a helpers stand there giving away those hair ribbon as a sign of starting point...so we followed at the last of the crowd.

there were 10thousand++l participant tis event...i was proud of myself tat i can completed d whole journey of the run distance...25km!!wow...amazing i can did it...i had left track n field since i was form 5,it was 5 years ago...never aspect i can complete.

it worth it...although the journey bac to the end point i cant even run...my legs pain..however i still never give up...i try to finish it..At last finished at 3hours 35mins..satisfied:) and brought bac a medal n cert for finisher within the time they set!!happy+enjoy+pain+suffer+fighting=success


My luck number D2331

legs pain until today...skip cls as reason of legs pain!!thanks god tat cls cancelled..whole day din go to sch..:) broke my own record...watched my 2nd movie within a month!!James BOnd!!007...
i felt bored but some enjoy watching..:)

NO idea.....

feeling so messy today....don noe why!!!!just feel like someone had made me damn mad in previous!!how come tis feeling suddenly pop up???i also got no idea...:(
whoever asking me a question...i damn feel like refuse to ans them...wat's goin on to me???feel like the world owe me everything...Aiks,hopefully will be fine after have a nice slip....:)

recently got a hk series drama...i feel it nice to watch...
"珠光宝气" from the drama,there is a quote sound like tis..."wear high heel is just can look farer,why dont we wear normal shoes, so tat we feel comfortable n can walk faster in our life?"
wat do tis quote try to express??guess it urself...hehe....

Madagascar...
i still rmb..my 1st movie whn i entered tarc n also 1st movie whn i step in penang after form 5 graduated...it was js after orientation....3years ago!!

13/11...again...Madagascar2"escape to Africa"...wow....worth to watch...:) "i like a move it move it....she likes a move it move it...Move it"hehe...

Done in succesfully

planning for 1 week for my cls small gathering...finally done!!:)
at 1st...we planning to go steambout,all so excited...and mark up some argument..cz different ppl,sure got different suggestion..:)
it's bcz there r few places tat we have our steambout...end up wit flip the coin to make decision...:)
objective of tis small gathering is...get all closer those classmates...since from 1st year semester 1 we entered,never ever got gathering b4...i feel tat my classmates r hard to mix up.
wat's the prob??i don like tat feeling...
started year2,it gettin better....sooner we graduate,what will happen?
-some will stay?
-some will leave?
-some will continue....
Hmm.....frustrated feeling!!

7/11/08
Y2M61-1st gathering
Time:7.00pm(all nt punctual)
Vanue:火锅之家(so many ppl....:( )
Attendance: 16pigs out of 21 (5 absent...no bad:) 1st time so many clsmates attended..)
Price: Rm17.90 (i don feel like worth it...cz got no beef,but nvm....i eat a lot of prawns...hehe)
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After tat...all feel like don wanna go bac cz still early although next morning got replacement cls at 9am...So,we thinking go for movie...but end up we went to bowling. Some of them cant stay for too late,from 16 decrease to 13....At bowling centre,we r the most craziest cz mostly don noe hw to "row" bowling...hehe..:) laughing,showing weird weird skills,etc..SOT =.=''
but happy.......:) after tat...all dismiss.
Whn i on de way bac...nearly reached to hostel,somebody called for paradise beach...Wow...so from 13 decrease to 10. 10 monkeys wondering at the beach....:) throwing each others into the sea....haha...it's reli fun..time past very fast,it was 2am..thn all pack up n cabut wit wet wet body...the night is still young for me...so i suggested go mamak have a drink...mana tau..they on too...Makan minum until 4am...!!hehe...whn on de way bac..1 of clsmate suggested go c sun rise...OMG!!we don nid to slip anymore...think of straight go to cls later..!!10 decrease 5....5 chickens go c sun rise...haha....we must have a patience while waitin for sun rise...so we wait wait wait....feel so good....:)




how nice the view....:)
reli tired....after breakfast went bac wash up straight go cls...
be blur sotong in the cls while teacher teaching...
It's reli wonderful n memorable...:)

nice poem....

Malaysia semua babi,
our government is so lousy,
make the college becomes no quality,
Chinese and Indian pun tak boleh masuk university.
It never had a choice for me,
because no money cannot study at oversea,
so I always feel i'm so pity.

Every college are greedy,
sini sana all need money,
their pocket kosong our perut noisy,
I am poor because there sucks my money.

Exam question full of difficulty,
it has one reason only,
which is to earn more money,
because we retake money masuk lagi.
The staffs always no aksi,
they did wrong never say sorry,
before asking please show your money,
otherwise they wont be happy,
we pay their salary still make us angry.
that's why i wanna study hard to earn more and more money

Tiap-Tiap hari feel so lazy,
never try to wake up early,
always hope college sekarang cuti,
everyday go to class feel so sleepy,
lecturer always scold me lazy.
do assignment just like to copy,
before the final just feel worry,
every nite study until crazy,
because scared scold by mummy.

Why my class always no pretty,
those elephant always show me how she's sexy,
the monster wanna treat me nicely,
like that i better mati.

my looking is **** ugly,
saya mari girl girl lari,
everyday date them they only say busy,
semua orang tak ada hati,
make me always so lonely,
only can watch porno movie.

CS always let people bully,
maybe i am really so lousy,
althought knife people is so happy,
but i am always unlucky,
kena headshot easily,
after mati still mati.

This is just a small story,
typed it simply,
feel funny and happy,
actually i am not lonely,
because I have many friends around me.

Hope It's nt too late

It was early in the morning..i js crawl onto the bed after had a chit chat wit my piggie.My mind keep reminding me tat the result goin to release a few hours later...
it's reli a death line...haiz!!!don care so muc then straight go slip..js laid down nt more thn 5min,i fall in sleep until something waken me up.it was 1pm in the afternoon...i saw missed call n some msges from frens....my heart beat started gettin nervous,so on my pc n login in to c my result.It reli out of my expectation...i fail to do so..i nt enuf work hard...i had played to muc..wasting to muc times..In addition..las sem reli killed me,very suffer n pressure,but who noe??all onli get myself to blame:(
my feeling down...so sad!!!reli sad!!!
haiz....:( think to face it....we cant change..wat to do??RESIT!!!

i should feel good actually..stil got a lot frens msg me n concern me about the result..too shame to ans them,:( Sorry..
but anyway..thx a lot...
i think i MUST reli work hard..i wan graduate!!!
push Push PUsh PUSh PUSH....
hope tat is nt too late...gambateh tiggger....

Just started sch not more than 1week,i already missed my cls today...
after tat rushing to sch...it was english cls..i was late!!!kena BOM by lecturer..
giving her a bad impression...too bad..!!
how terrible??mayb there's no more alarm clock to wake me up...:(
have to learn to be good in time management...
今晚很突然的她来电了。。就聊了一下。你到底要怎样？当我要放弃的时候，你就给我一点点希望。我很辛苦，我知道不可能往回，那你就然我走吧！我不知道要怎样的面对你，他的出现然我更难过。我只想要快乐。回忆？？你还要来做默？看了都心酸，你还留下来干嘛？忘记过去吧！！
想了很多。。我还是坚持不跟你说，不给不你知道，因为这已经不重要了。
擦肩而过这首歌就让你唱给吧！我不是一个好男人.:|
我要每天的跟我自己说“加油！因为你被人看低你没前途"
very happy tat i still got my frens...thanks for accompany me when i was down..but all the journey i still nid to walk on myself...nth i can prove now..js to wish tat i graduate as soon as possible,i had wasted too much times in tis past few years.No matter how...God will lead me.老虎,加油!!!

LIFe....

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

Love the people who treat u right.

Forget about the ones who don't.

Believe everything happens for a reason.

If u get a second chance, grab it with both hands.

If it changes ur life, let it.

Nobody said life would be easy.

They just promised it would be worth it.

辛苦+开心

just started my 2nd day of the 2nd semester..
i feel it's so hard,how i gonna to continue??
another 11days,1st semester result going to release.
how i gonna to face it...?>.<
Everything going as usual,but something is missing...
i gonna use to it...i must let it go...

this evening played basketball under the rain..long time never have it..
it's reli enjoy although the floor a bit slippery and got some injuries on my toes:(
老虎，你要加油。。凡是都要靠自己！

新的开始

feel like life much complicated...wat i need actually??
Have everything settle down after holiday??
today sch reopen,my semester2 is started....i still got no heart to get ready.

i need to let go....must let it go as fast as possible...要你离开我！
分手后不可以做朋友，因为彼此伤害过；不可以做敌人，因为彼此深爱过，所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人。一个深爱你的女生也是一个伤害你最深的女生。
恋爱不容易。。跌倒就要自己爬起来，不是一件简单的事。

从新开始要靠自己，没人陪你。。。要坚强，要加油！！！